sitting up in my room on a stormy wee hours of the morning. i had crashed earlier on coming home from the gym. yes, finally, i found a gym! not that it's difficult to be in a gym but i'm very disgusted at many of the plans offered. they make you sign up for 2 yrs and then they push it by trying to sell you lifetime membership.

ok, i'm happy with the gym i'm with right now. thats that. i'm tempted to start another blog. yea, a fresh start. i think everyone should be given that opputunity to start something new. it could be turning into a new leaf. i believe we can all change. it's either for the good or the not so good.

wow, it's really pouring outside the window. those silent or far away thunders and the sound of the pouring rain is a perfect indgredient to write or just to sleep in. it reminded me of a series of cd compilation i had under the hed kandi series quiet storm or deeper. fantastic mark doyle's compilation. they were really good till they hit the wall later years cause they keep releasing the same stuffs.

hmv closed in singapore. thats like the last cd megastore around. it use to haven here with tower records and book. they went defunct earlier but i have to admit, i love killing time there just looking for cd or just educating myself with what they have. it's the experience of holding it and looking at how many tracks did the artiste released on that album. and what now, how are we going to buy music????

oh yea, there's itunes singapore!

well, what do you know..... three years have passed on and let me give you a lowdown.

i'm so done with studying and plus, I did not pull through that school phrase. yea, I have to admit that it was tough trying to piece things together all the time and the running around.

where do I begin, oh yeah. dad can move now. he's improved a lot for the past 3 years. mom also fall sick right after I got better from that sick ordeal. mom got worst with complications and I was really practically loosing my head. no joke and things around me did not make it any better. I can't help it, no... not any better.

things start to progress on to medical appts for mom and putting her back to the hospital clinic appt. was the best thing for both of us. the thing is, public healthcare did not help. well I can see all this from the many walk in's old folks at the polyclinic. these old folks gotta wait like forever before they can see the doctor. that is after a lot of confusion waiting.

confuse waiting you ask, first they are led to the wrong counter or wrong line. this is due because they can't here or maybe because of mobility. I feel for these old folks. for them who came with someone or with their kids or helper it's fine.... for many, they came alone. alone.

yes, there's a lot of things that made me sigh these days but sometimes you need to let all of these negative emotions pass on cause it's really not good. really.... not good at all.

but the most important thing is, mom is home and she's happy.

as for me, i'm sitting up in my room and going on and on, on my laptop. i'm actually trying to get some work done here but thought i'd side track a little. yes I feel tired fast later but hey, anything to keep me sane. with the recent reports about ppl letting off their steam in public or just loosing their mind shows something about our society now. people are more stressed up now then before and situations here is not helping. it's like forget about reading local news. I say, no news is good news. so no news reading on local stuffs. i'm happier.

now that 3 yrs have past since my last post let me tell you this, 2010 was my last full marathon. I've not ran after that and it's taking toll on my health. i'm due to start soon because I've found a gym. gosh, it's back to square one for me but I gotta do it. I have to start slow on the treadmill. I blame it all on my health downfall. the blood counts. ok, lets just do it and I have a report pretty soon.

I'm just wondering, who reads to the stuff I put up here. I know I'm going on and on again but, it would be fantastic to know who's reading. ok ok ok ok.... I know, no one reads mind cause its all boring. but then again, we live in Singapore, what could be exciting!!!!! hahahahaha.... ok, I've yacked enough and would leave some room next time.